Mommy Monday-Lighten Up

Mom's need to lighten up. Yep, I am one now so I can say that fairly. And I don't necessarily mean on their kids, I just mean they (we) need to learn sometimes to let the little things go.

I am sometimes jealous of Steve, or dads, because they can just play. They can get out in the yard, leave all responsibility behind and just play with their kids. It seems like they aren't thinking about how the dishes need to be done or there's too much dog poop in the yard or that everyone needs a bath. Dad's can just let themselves be little boys again and have fun with their kids. Have fun and give them the attention they want and deserve. I sometimes feel like I am thinking and worrying too much about what needs to be done around the house and what I should or could have accomplished in the time I spent playing outside or in his room with my son. Maybe moms are so serious because they spend more time at home alone with their kids and need a break or maybe we just feel like we have to be able to do it all; work, be supermom, stay fit, be well read, keep the house clean, cook dinner and on and on and on. I know that the house and the yard need attention too but at the end of the day is it really going to matter that my baseboards were clean or that I swept up the dog hair three times a day.

The truth is that there is not anything that will be more accomplishing or fulfilling than spending these precious moments with my son. One day he will not be a little toddler who thinks I am the coolest think since Curious George. That day, I will have all the time in the world to do the dishes and dust the house and those things will feel so empty compared to the hugs and kisses and mommy I love oohh's. What I wonder is, how do you find the balance? How do you learn to let yourself simply spend time enjoying your kids and the fleeting moments without thinking about that to do list that is lingering on your desk or your fridge? Currently I am working on being more like a dad, letting go and enjoying those moments, enjoying the sweet once in a lifetime moments that God is giving me with Cian every day. I think this might take years. I might be a grandmother before I master it but I hope that I squeeze in enough time that my son,my husband and any future kids know that the moments with them are the moments I am living for.